My only homebirth baby turned 12 yesterday. Happy birthday, Taryn Elizabeth!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Eieieiei
Liam is learning to sing along to Old MacDonald. This entails drawling out, "E I E I E I.." Maybe someday he'll get the "O" on there. Love that baby.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Frustration
Liam is doing beautifully. Of course, right now he is getting his corner teeth and nips at me all the time (why me?) which is frustrating. He walks, a weeble-wobble teetering from side to side. Except he does fall down.
I have been thinking again about a preschool-daycare. Not this year, most likely, but in a year or so. I thought about doing a waldorf-inspired preschool, and offering all day services if desired.
I don't want to do true waldorf because I am not trained, and I don't really "believe" in the entire waldorf philosophy. But to have a quiet preschool, where children can play with natural toys, and learn songs, and finger plays, watercolors, and such, and slowly be introduced into academics (alphabet and numbers, shapes, etc) would be nice.
But I don't want to be strong into a philosophy where I can't occasionally pop in a Barney tape on a rainy day.
I started researching to try and find advice and ran into the AP stuff that was unpleasant, particularly regarding people who don't live their ideals or who turn vastly away from it. This controversy was the Hygeia Halfmoon one, but it also mentioned the Mango Mama issue. It just reminded me how easy it is to get lost in ideals, to be taken advantage of, to be a hypocrite, or to even burn out. I want balance. I don't believe the mainstream has it right, but certain aspects of it aren't bad. I certainly don't want to rob anyone of their choice on how to parent. I don't want to force someone to breastfeed or look down on someone who lets their kid watch a little TV.
But then I started to feel shame. Shame because I do have all or nothing tendencies. Shame that I want to homeschool my children. Am I just wanting to control them and make them dependent on me? I don't think so. I think I want to share my love of learning with them, and do projects, and introduce them to the amazing variety and great thinkers of the past before forced learning robs them of the joy of discovery. But I can't help but wonder.
I don't want them to be like me and think learning only matters if you are getting a grade on it (where's the proof of knowledge with the credit hours on your transcript). But I dont' want to smother them either.
Things to think about, I suppose.
I do tend to overresearch things until I am unsure of everything I want. I wish I could operate more on gut or heart. I'd be happier.
Love,
Jill
I have been thinking again about a preschool-daycare. Not this year, most likely, but in a year or so. I thought about doing a waldorf-inspired preschool, and offering all day services if desired.
I don't want to do true waldorf because I am not trained, and I don't really "believe" in the entire waldorf philosophy. But to have a quiet preschool, where children can play with natural toys, and learn songs, and finger plays, watercolors, and such, and slowly be introduced into academics (alphabet and numbers, shapes, etc) would be nice.
But I don't want to be strong into a philosophy where I can't occasionally pop in a Barney tape on a rainy day.
I started researching to try and find advice and ran into the AP stuff that was unpleasant, particularly regarding people who don't live their ideals or who turn vastly away from it. This controversy was the Hygeia Halfmoon one, but it also mentioned the Mango Mama issue. It just reminded me how easy it is to get lost in ideals, to be taken advantage of, to be a hypocrite, or to even burn out. I want balance. I don't believe the mainstream has it right, but certain aspects of it aren't bad. I certainly don't want to rob anyone of their choice on how to parent. I don't want to force someone to breastfeed or look down on someone who lets their kid watch a little TV.
But then I started to feel shame. Shame because I do have all or nothing tendencies. Shame that I want to homeschool my children. Am I just wanting to control them and make them dependent on me? I don't think so. I think I want to share my love of learning with them, and do projects, and introduce them to the amazing variety and great thinkers of the past before forced learning robs them of the joy of discovery. But I can't help but wonder.
I don't want them to be like me and think learning only matters if you are getting a grade on it (where's the proof of knowledge with the credit hours on your transcript). But I dont' want to smother them either.
Things to think about, I suppose.
I do tend to overresearch things until I am unsure of everything I want. I wish I could operate more on gut or heart. I'd be happier.
Love,
Jill
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